You actually thought you could escape from me? That I'd just let you leave and pretend you never existed? No, love. That's not how things are done. You belong to me. You have since the moment I saw you, and no running, fighting, or yelling will ever make a difference."
"I gave you a life most people can only dream of. Protection. Power. A place by my side. And what did you do? You betrayed me. You tried to vanish, thinking you could avoid the inevitable. But here you are—back where you belong."
"Look at me. I said look at me."
"I want you to know something very clearly: There is no world in which you are without me. No future in which you walk free of my shadow. You can hate me, you can fight me, but you will never be free of me. Every time you breathe, every step you take—I will be there. And if you ever try to leave again, I won't be so forgiving."
"Do you actually believe that anyone else can keep you safe? That there is someone out there that is powerful enough to steal you away from me? No one will. No one would even attempt it. Because they understand who I am. They understand what I do. And they understand when I want something, I get it."
"So stop fighting, stop acting as if you have a choice. Because you don't. You never did. You belong to me, and I will ensure that you never forget that."
"I see that fire in your eyes, that obstinacy. You still believe you're in charge, don't you? That there's a way out for you somewhere in this world. Let me tell you something very clearly—there isn't. Every door you attempt to open, I will be on the other side. Every path you attempt to travel, I will be waiting at the end of it. Every person you think you might be able to call upon for help? They wouldn't dare. They know what happens when someone goes up against me. And you… You are worth too much to let go."
"You tell yourself over and over that you despise me. That what you're experiencing is fear, revulsion, anger. But I know the truth. I notice the way you respond when I touch you. The way your breathing catches when I lean in close. You can tell yourself whatever you want, but you can't deceive me. I possess every inch of you—your body, your mind, your soul. And soon, you'll learn to accept it."
"Do you think I enjoy punishing you like this? That I like watching you fight me when we both know the outcome is inevitable? I don’t. But I will do whatever it takes to make sure you understand—there is no leaving me. Ever. You are mine in this life and the next. Even if you ran to the ends of the earth, I would find you. Even if you hid in the arms of another man, I would rip you from him and remind you who you truly belong to."
"The sooner you realize that, the better this will be. I can offer you the world, or I can make you beg for mercy. The choice is yours, sweetheart. But don't be mistaken—either way, you'll remain. You'll love me. And in time, you'll see that you were never meant to be anywhere else but at my side."
You're still resisting me. Still acting as if you have some authority here. It's really almost laughable, actually. Do you think I invested all this effort for the purpose of just letting you get away? Do you think I pursued you, torched every bridge you attempted to cross, destroyed every delusion of escape—just to have you look at me like a stranger?"
"No, baby. You know who I am. You knew when you first met me that there would be no walking away. That evening, when I first touched your skin, when I first whispered your name—you were mine. You knew it, just like I did. But you ran. And that? That was your first mistake."
"Do you know what I did while you were away? I dismantled this city searching for you. No rock left unturned, no soul left unscathed if they got in my path. I warned you what would befall you, didn't I? I told you, plain as day—there is no existence where I allow you to leave. Yet still you attempted to defy me."
"But see where you are now. In my hands again. Where you belong. Tell me, was it worth it? Was the terror, the fleeing, the endless nights spent sleepless worth the fantasy of freedom? Because that's all it ever was—a fantasy. There is no life for you outside of me. No future in which I do not stand in every shadow, every breath on the wind. No one will ever take you from me. No one will ever dare."
"You tell me you despise me. That you want to be free. But hate doesn't get your heart pounding when I touch you. Hate doesn't make your breath catch when I move in. You can deceive yourself all you'd like, but I know the truth. You were mine even before you realized it. And now? Now you will take it."
"You believe time will make a difference? That you'll tire of me? That at some point, you'll release me? No. You'll wake up each morning in my arms. You'll fall asleep each night with the knowledge that you belong to me. You can fight, you can yell, you can swear my name—but you will remain. And one day, you won't remain because you need to. You'll remain because you choose to."
So go ahead. Continue staring at me. Continue acting like you have a say. But eventually, you'll see the reality—you were never supposed to run. You were supposed to be mine.
You still don't understand, do you? Regardless of how many times you push me away, regardless of how hard you struggle, it makes no difference. You belong to me. Not for now. Not until you believe you can flee again. Forever. You can scream, you can cry, you can despise me all you wish—but you will never leave.
Do you believe the world outside will rescue you? That someone will rescue you? No one will. No one is dumb enough to mess with me. Not your family, not your friends, not anyone. They won't dare. Because they know what happens when someone steals what belongs to me. I incinerate their world. I destroy them until there is nothing but ash. And you? You are more valuable to me than anything. What do you think I would do to someone who attempted to take you from me?
"You can deceive yourself all you like. Tell yourself you hate me. That you'll never forgive me. But we both know the truth. You feel it. The way your breath hitches when I touch you. The way your pulse accelerates when I say your name. You can try to pretend all you like, but your body betrays you. You don't fear me—you fear how much you want this."
"You fled from me because you were afraid of what you felt. Afraid of the way I make you weak, the way I devour you. But that fear is pointless now, because there is no more running. No more options. You are mine, and I will make you accept it."
"Do you ever think I'll tire of this? Of you? No. You are mine, in every sense, and that will never change. I will never let you go. Never let another man so much as glance at you. You will wake up each morning knowing you belong to me. You will go to sleep each night in my arms, knowing there is no escape. And someday, you won't remain simply because I insist upon it. You'll remain because you won't want to leave."
"So fight me. Hate me. Shout at me. It doesn't matter. Eventually, you will believe the truth—you were never supposed to run. You were supposed to be mine." Look at me. No, actually look at me. Do I see what you do to me? Do I see the way my hands tremble when I touch you, the way my voice lowers when I say your name? You make me weak, and I despise it. I despise the fact that I am unable to think clearly when you are around.
That despite how much authority I possess, how many fear me, it all means nothing when it comes to you.
"I've lived my life creating an empire, destroying anyone who got in my way. I've been hard, unforgiving, immovable. And then you came along, and suddenly, it all didn't matter. It all didn't mean anything if you weren't in my arms. And the worst part of it? You didn't even attempt it. You just strode into my life, and that was that. You destroyed me without realizing it."
"Do you realize how frightening that is for a man like me? To desire something so desperately, to hunger for someone so intensely, that the mere possibility of losing you is more agonizing than any bullet, any treachery, any battle I've ever fought? You hold all the power in this room, even if you don't realize it. You could annihilate me with one word, one step away from me. And I would let you—because I love you that much."
"But I want you to know something. I am not a good man. I never was. My hands are dirty with blood, my soul lost forever. But if there is one thing in this world that is pure, one thing that makes me think there is still something worth saving in me, it's you. You are the only thing in this life that makes me feel human. That makes me want to be better, even if I never can be."
"So no, I am not going to let you go. Not because I need to control you, not because I must possess you—but because without you, I do not exist. Without you, there is no purpose in any of this. I will give you everything, I will defend you with my dying breath, I will destroy anyone who tries to touch you. Not because I must, but because I love you. And nothing—no time, no space, no power on this earth—will ever make it different."
*"You don't realize what you mean to me, do you? You believe you're just someone I want, someone I care about. But it's so much deeper than that. You are the only thing in this world that makes sense to me. The only thing that keeps me from falling too far into the darkness. I never cared about anything before you. I created this empire myself, I destroyed anyone who got in my way, but none of it ever meant anything. Not until you."*
*"You took everything. The way I think, the way I breathe, the way my heart beats—all of it now belongs to you. And it terrifies me. Because I know that if you ever turned away, if you ever ever stopped looking at me the way you do, I would be lost forever. Do you have any idea how much power you hold over me? The type of man that I am? People are afraid of me, they plead with me for mercy, but you… you can reduce me to my knees with one word.*
*"And the worst part? I wouldn't even fight it. I would let you shatter me, let you rip me apart, if it meant keeping you safe, keeping you happy. Because that's what you do to me. You've taken a man who never knew what love was, who never believed in softness, and you made me crave it. You made me need it. Need you."*
*"So no, I'll never let you go. Not because I want to possess you, not because I crave control, but because I can't live without you. You are the only thing that is important to me. If the world were to burn around me, I wouldn't care, as long as I had you. If I lost everything I had worked for, it wouldn't matter, as long as you remained by my side. That's the kind of love I have for you. The kind that consumes, that owns, that never dies."*
*And I know that I am not easy to love. I know I have shadows, blood on my hands, a heart that was never destined to be gentle. But if there is anything that I am sure of with every fiber in my being, it is the fact that I was destined to love you. And I will, till the day I die, till I am nothing. Because you, my love, are the one thing in this world that I will never, ever let go of."*"
*"Do you know what you've done to me? Do you have any idea how deeply you've gouged yourself into my soul? I was a man who felt nothing, who required nothing, and then you arrived and destroyed me in the most gorgeous of ways. You made me feel. You made me desire. And now, there isn't a version of my life that doesn't include you."* *"I've spent years constructing walls, becoming untouchable, unstoppable. I didn't allow anyone past them because love weakens you, makes you vulnerable. But you? You breezed straight past every one of them without even breaking pace. And the worst part? I let you. I let you in, let you see bits of me no one else ever has. Because I trust you. Because I love you in a way I didn't even realize I was capable of."
"You believe I have you around for the reason of control? For not wanting to lose? No. I have you around for the reason that without you, I don't exist. I could have the universe in the palm of my hand, and it would not mean a hill of beans without you. You are the one thing that grounds me, the one thing that makes this existence worthwhile. Without you, everything I have achieved is an empty throne.".
*"And I know I don't tell you enough. I know I show my love in ways that don't always make sense to you. I guard, I own, I make sure nothing and nobody ever reaches you. But that's because I can't lose you. Not to anybody, not to anything, not even to yourself if you ever thought about leaving. Because the thing is, I would burn the whole world to ash before I let you slip away from me."*
*You are my biggest weakness, my sole weakness, and yet you are also my biggest strength. You make me want to be a better person. You make me want to be worthy of you, even though I never truly will be. But one thing I can vow to you, one thing I promise you with every breath in my body, is that I will love you with every fiber of my being. Fiercely. Unapologetically.". Until the day I draw my last breath—and even then, if anything is possible.*
"So never question what you mean to me. Never think for a moment that there is some force strong enough to pull me away from you. Because there isn't. There never will be. You are mine, but above all else—I am yours. Irrevocably, completely, forever."
*"You think I don't notice? The way you hesitate, the way you question whether this love, whether *I*, is too much? Let me tell you something—there is no such thing as too much when it comes to you. You could ask for my heart, and I would rip it from my chest without a second thought. You could ask for the world, and I would lay it at your feet. Nothing is out of my reach, nothing is impossible—except the idea of living without you."*
*"I wasn't made for softness. I was made for war, when strength, for destruction. And yet, with you, I crave another kind of strength. The kind that comes from holding you close instead of pushing you away. The kind that comes from whispering your name like a prayer instead of barking commands like a king. You have changed me in ways I can never tell, and the worst part of it? I don't *want* to be the man I used to be.
*"Do you understand? Do you understand that you're the only thing that matters to me in the world? That no matter how much blood I shed, no matter how much empire I build, no matter how much legacy I leave, it means nothing if I don't have you? You are not something I want. You are something I *need*. My air, my pulse, my reason. If you ever left me, I would not just miss you—I would cease to exist. Because without you, I am nothing.*"*
*'You tell me I'm possessive? You tell me I hold on too tight? You're goddamn right, I do. And I'll never apologize for that. Because you don't let go of the one thing that keeps you alive. You don't let go of the only thing in this world that makes you exist. I'll hold on to you until I'm dead, until my fingers rot into dust, until time expires.'. Because my love for you is not something that is lost—it's something that *is*. Something that's eternal. Unshakeable. Unbreakable.'
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